Saturday, December 30, 2017

My New Year's Resolution | 2018

My New Year’s Resolution

2017 has been a pretty incredible year. It’s been filled with love, challenges, adventure, family, and lots of “firsts”! This time last year we were cheering on Emmajean as she learned to crawl, and it wasn’t long before she stood up, leaned forward, and took her first running steps… landing in her first face plant! She learned her first words, had her first birthday, and we took her on her first family beach trip. We’ve also learned a lot about ourselves and parenting.  We’ve learned just how sensitive her skin is, how well she can climb, how to kiss boo-boos, and how strong her determination is. Most recently, we’ve learned how to get her to sleep through the night!

We’ve thoroughly enjoyed watching our baby blossom and grow into toddlerhood.  We’ve felt our hearts grow bigger every day and understand the significance of all of those parenting clichés we’ve heard forever. Life will never be the same. Time flies in the blink of an eye. Sleep when baby sleeps. The days can be long, but the years are short. Baby brain is real. There’s nothing as strong as a mother’s love. Being a mom is the hardest job I’ve ever had, but definitely the most rewarding! It’s been funny to hear this stuff over and over and then actually live it. I see it all with new understanding and appreciation.

You’d think hearing the clichés and experiences from friends and loved ones would have helped prepare me for motherhood, but each day has been a learning experience.  Every child is different and you really cannot plan for everything and certainly can’t control life. I think I was probably least prepared for the fatigue, additional worry, and mental overload that comes with motherhood.

My mind is so quick to wander… did Emmajean eat enough, is she going to nap, is she climbing on her toy kitchen, am I a bad mom for letting her watch TV before she’s two? Did I e-mail my client back? I need to get to the grocery; what do I need from the grocery?  I need to clean the house and organize my desktop. Et cetera, et cetera! Random stuff leaps into my mind and takes no mercy on the person trying to converse with me. This is something I’ve always struggled with and it’s just heightened in the past year and a half. I literally inhale my food, run from errand to errand, and have trouble quieting my mind. Part of my struggle has been rushing everything to keep up, and when Emmajean’s with me, I’m always splitting my focus between the conversation at hand and her.

This year my New Year’s resolution is to slow down and focus on listening.

I know I’ll still be busy and some days I’ll be in a rush, but I’m going to consciously make an effort to slow down and listen. Now that Emmajean can listen and entertain herself better, I hope it will be easier for me to focus when I’m listening to someone when she’s with me, too. I know the loved ones in my life deserve a good listener and that’s what I really hope I can work on in 2018.  

To those of you who’ve experienced this with me first-hand, thanks for sticking with me and I hope to make it up to you in future conversations! (Starting with my husband! Thanks for being a good listener even when I’ve not been the best!)

What did you learn about yourself in 2017? 
Do you have a new year’s resolution? 
I’ll also be working on the typical resolution to eat better and exercise more, too. 

Happy New Year!!
We're looking forward to all of the fun and memories made in 2018! 

Here are some of my favorite images to look back on from 2017. #emmajean #timeflies #shesnotababyanymore!